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So, I am going to make an effort to be more positive. Lord knows I have a lot to be positive about. People are funny, aren't they? No matter how lucky we are, it becomes easy to become bogged down in the perceived negatives of our lives. Anyways, the building is almost done. I know I have said that before but it really, truly is. I can't overstate how much of a difference that will make. It turned into such an expensive, time consuming project that it really effected me. There can be no doubt that I am way worse financially for leaving Alaska. However, I am here because I expect that change. It needs to. I just miss Alaska too damn much to have this be for nothing. I was just saying to Jeremy the other day how much my standard of living has decreased. It's not just financial...it is that leaving Alaska meant leaving almost everything that I love to do. Instead of boating or fishing or hunting or camping I work. I just work. I don't mind the work. I d…
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So, I am really trying to feel better.  I just can't seem to do it.  I'm feeling real sick of this.  I don't give a shit if I am complaining....it is my blog and I will do as I please.  This 12 hours a day bullshit just to lose ground every month is beyond the pale.  I am wore out.  That is all.
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So, I am wondering if I haven't made a mistake.  I'm just so frustrated.  You know, I had some problems with life in Alaska.  I know I did, and this blog contains proof of that.  But if I had known the amount of stress and bullshit that this firm would entail, I'm not sure if I would have left.  I just cannot get ahead.  I just can't.  I work seven days a week, often 12 hours a day.  We get amazing results.  God it's incredible how many people we save.  Yet there is so much government bullshit that just eats me alive.   Everytime it looks like there might be a little left over there is a new bill.  Some new tax or regulation or expense that leaves me with nothing.  I recently lost our health insurance for the family because it got too expensive under the "Affordable Care Act".  I have no savings or retirement.  I live in a rental and my rent is going up substantially in August.  But housing is so expensive here that I can't see ever being able to affo…