alone cost us over $20,000! If I never see another contractor again, I will be happy. 9 months of every single dollar we make going into this place. Oh well. In other news, my middle child turned 5 a few days ago. Happy birthday AJ! Perhaps is just getting older. Perhaps it is the 80 plus hour weeks. But the time I spend with them seems to be more and more precious. There is so much more I want to give them.
The practice is going well but it will take a long time indeed (it feels like) to get out from what it cost to be here. Since this is my blog and is meant to chronicle my life, I will share something: I know that the world is my oyster but I can't help but feel melancholy some of the time. Yes, yes. I know I shouldn't. But sometimes when I am alone I can't help but remember what it was like on Tustumena Lake in Spring. The giant sigh of relief in the Spring as I turned over my soil and had chickens in the bathroom and pulled the boat of the snow. To be honest, I often find myself in tears thinking about Alaska. Like slackwater. Or that sense when I rounded the corner and the lake was, well, just there. Driftwood fires and the salmon on the grill. I just miss Alaska. I need to go back for a visit. Soon. This is hard.