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So, the last few weeks without the family has been revealing. It has made me realize that I really have no friends here in Alaska. I'm sure those of you who think that I am an asshole won't be surprised.  I have people who I am friendly with but I don't have any really close buddies here  Bill: don't get BH.  Ever since Jesse left for law school at Spokane I don't have anyone to do the things I like.  And now that I have sold the boat and Rhino, I am concerned about how to fill 'my' time (i.e the time that I have just for me).  When I really think about, the one person who has always been there in the last fifteen years is Jeremy.  It doesn't matter what it is...and especially money, Jeremy has always been there.  But he lives in California.  I know J is unhappy here.  It just strikes me as odd: when we lived in California, we always had the best dinners.  The best parties.  Even back in law school, I would have people over for Sunday dinner.  My house…
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So,  the family is still stuck in Europe.  I still have no idea when they will be home.  Kadee was supposed to start school today but that didn't happen of course.  The Embasssy says they have issued the visa and given it to the courier for delivery but the courier says they haven't been called.  What a joke.  I hope to have some answers very soon.  In other news, the Defense Rests is gone.  Makes me sad how much money I lost on her but it is for the best.  I have been organizing, cleaning and repairing all my outdoor gear and putting it away for another long, long winter.  Fall will be here any day.  The weather has turned rainy, which is common in Alaska in August.  I'm annoyed because once again my garden has turned into a giant slug fest.  I am either going to do something totally different or just bag the garden next year....the amount of energy and money for the food is NOT worth it.  I know many people do it, but I can't seem to grow a decent garden in Alaska. …
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So, Tustumena lake. My favorite place on Earth.  One last ride on the Defense Rests. We ran across this little feller fishing.  Becky, of course, was growling and wanted to have a go with him.  God I love that dog.   I have sold the boat.  The Rhino too.  No toys left.  All must go in my quest to find something different.  It's not Alaska.  I don't know what it is.  But I will miss the crap out of that lake.  I don't know where my future is.  It is hard to think clearly in a silent house.  First: get my family home.  Second, think about our future.  Lately I have found myself at a loss.  I have always been able to do what I what I wanted with my life.  Sway a room with my charm.  But is it that I am getting older?  That I have lost some of 'me'?  I don't know.  All I know is that I miss my kids.  I will miss that lake.  Some of my happiest memories are there.......today I saw the first yellow leaves out there.  Winter is coming.....

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So, I miss the crap out of my kids. There is only one benefit: when I clean something it stays that way.  The house is spotless.  I am detailing the vehicles.  The yard is clean. I like it a lot.  I have no firm news on when the family is coming home.....so to stay busy I am cleaning and then being amazed when it is still clean when I come home....


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So, my vacation is over.  We had a good time.  However, the good feelings from two weeks of fishing, camping, gold panning, shooting, boating, hiking and just relaxing ended this morning.  This morning some government official in Germany denied J entry back into the US.  By extension, that included my daughters (I can't go to Germany and get the kids obviously).  The reason was BS: a problem with her TD visa.  I can only imagine her day...for it gets worse.  They deny her entry.  So she goes to get her luggage and the car seat is missing.  She is trying to text me but her phone is running out of credits.  She goes to buy a ticket back to England and discovers that the "emergency" credit card I sent her with has expired and is declined.  3 kids.  Luggage.  No money.  No credit card.  Stranded in Europe.  God that must have sucked.  I have to get on this.  I will get her home but it will likely take weeks and cost me thousands of dollars.  I just sold the Rhino and was ho…