Posts

Showing posts from March, 2010
Image
So life changed in Kenai today. Walmart opened. And we went. Well. I went 3 times, mainly just to check prices. I am torn. On the one hand, I understand all the arguments against Walmart. I do. On the other hand, diapers are $20 cheaper. Vegetables. Cheese. All sorts of things. What am I supposed to do? I spend $100 a month just on milk. I have another kid coming and NO idea how I am going to do it. None. So we went and looked. We made a list of things that we needed to see. Dog food. Milk. Diapers. Cheese. Fruit and vegetables. Paper towels. And for the most part, things are a little cheaper. .50 cents times 100 items a month adds up. I had a sandwich for $3.88 for lunch. It would normally cost me over $6. That is $40 a month right there. Plus the store just has everything in one place. Damnit. I don't want to go. But I will. Besides. Alaska is gone. I live in a town where it is a good day to see only one cop. The people here now want it to be like Texa…
Image
So, April is coming. God it sucks. Not winter and not summer. But, the good news is that I know how I feel during April. So I am staying busy. Today was Seward's day. To celebrate being in Alaska I cut wood. Got the .300 Win Mag ready for Spring bear season. I have not shot a black bear yet but want to do so this spring. The kids and I really, really enjoy bear meat. I planted seeds for the garden. Of course, the kids tried to help. I think the kids were more distracted by the new pup. This time I got a hound/lab mix. We'll see how he does, after the bad luck we have had with dogs. Let's hope he has a long and happy life. So. Bring it on April. My seeds are growing. My kids. Chickens and hogs are on the way. The .300 Win Mag is dialed in. The wood pile is growing. Soon it will be time to make (and drink) beer. The boat is almost ready to go. The summer 2010 list is done. Driving the Alcan. Kennicott. Fishing, camping, hiking, hunting and gardening are all on the list.…
Image
So, I went to the Caribou hills to snowmachine. To be honest I didn't want to go. But I had a good time anyway. Learned (again) a valuable lesson. When we went out it was a bluebird day. I had no gear other than what I had on. Then, from the direction of Tustumena lake, a storm moved in. It was 'only' a spring storm, but it was bad enough. It became almost impossible to see. Thank god we had some idea where we were and there were trails. Good lesson. Everytime you get complacent in Alaska, it reminds you that it can kill you in the blink of an eye. We made it back to the cabin and everything was alright. Next time I go, I am taking a backpack with better gear and survival equipment. I keep thinking that the end of March is 'safe'. It is not. Be careful.
Image
So, America. Welcome to the civilized world. Kind of. Really? Anger over health care? Damn those people with pre-existing conditions. Damn the poor. Children. The sick. You people are insane. I am not a religous person. At all. But I have dedicated my life to the poor. The cursed. The ill. I cannot help but think of these words 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Matthew 25: 31-46. So funny. Republicans (the so called Christians in this country) up in arms because the sick may get help. This country is insane sometimes. You know what? Some prefer a country where getting sick can lead to bankruptcy and poverty. Where insane foreign wars can burn through a treasury but the children and sick can rot in their own misery. What the hell?
Image
So, what is it about being sick that makes me feel so weird when I start to get better? I got sick on Wednesday and then spent almost 3 days in bed. It was the sickest I have been in a decade or more. It was awful. The kids, and J were sick too. I slept, off and on (and mostly on) for about 60 hours. Today I started to feel better. But frustrated too. I think I just don't like lying around for days. I don't like break-up that much. There I said it. Whiney or not, I simply don't like this type of year. But more than that. Is it a simple effect of getting older that I feel like I am missing out on things in life? Does everyone get itchy to do more? See more? I have never travelled outside of Canada, the US or Mexico, for example. Our house is nothing much. Oh, I know my life is pretty darned good. But tossing and turning and sweating in a fever for days has left me feeling disorientated. Anxious. Feeling like something important is passing me by. I can&#…
Image
So, I was happy getting my boat together. Break up started in earnest yesterday. One of my favorite things is to shovel all of the snow off it. It takes a day or two to clear but then looks like a boat again. I got a couple of seats too and installed them tonight. Summer is coming. That means friends. Interns. Visitors. The boat, which has been a massive financial hole is finally running right. Knock on wood. I was looking forward to a summer of finally getting the girls out with me...a little fishing, camping, you name it. The weather has been great. I ate a great dinner of salmon. I have half a bottle of whiskey. Life is good.....Oh wait. What is that? J....you have been feeling sick. Oh sure take a test. Don't be silly. We have had all the stomach flu in the last few weeks. Do it if you feel the need. To my future son or daughter: please don't take this wrong. CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!
Just crap. I honestly don't know how to do this. I am sure I will love you as fer…
Image
So, fine. The below freezing weather and all this new snow is hard. Everyone I talk to seems down. But then I thought about it. Almost everyone I talk to is from somewhere else. People who remember what March "should" be like. I figured it was time to talk to someone else. So I hooked up with a buddy who has a commercial fishing boat. He grew up here and had a different take on this time of year. He likes it. The days are bright and the days getting longer. The snow is still good enough for a little skiing or snowmachining. It is a good time of year, he says. Come help me on the boat he says. He had a personal use crab pot out that he needed help retrieving. He is a super cool guy that just knows how to do everything that Alaska can offer. So you betcha! We shoveled off the boat and off we went into Kachemak Bay, one of my favorite places in the world.
It wasn't quite "The Deadliest Catch" but it was still great to pull up the pot full of Tanner crabs, fightin…
Image
So, I have a confession to make. I am thinking of leaving Alaska. Truly. I don't want to go. I don't know where we would go. I don't know how. And it isn't just because it is March and we got another 3 or 4 inches of snow today. It isn't just losing a big trial. It is a lot of reasons. First, the wife hates it here. Hates it. She'll be mad at me for telling the world this, but so be it. I guess that is reason enough. But there is more. I miss things living here. I miss owning a horse. Could I do it here? Sure, if I want to pay $600 a ton (or more) for hay. Imagine that times 2 or 3 horses x 8 months of winter and not enough land to let them graze anyways? I miss gardens. Fruit trees. I miss Spring. Makes me think of the trapper in Jeremiah Johnson. "March is a green,muddy month down below. Some folks like it. Farmers mostly". Funny. The whole reason I went to law school was to earn enough to have a farm one day. Can it be done here? I suppose. Ther…
Image
So, I lost. To those of you inclined to leave anonymous comments, who did NOT see the evidence, feel free. Justice was not done today. I am disappointed. But if you think I am done, think again. Not in this case. Not for any case. Be cautious in your celebration. I am aware that this blog is open to the world so I won't say more. No comment. But let me say this. In times like this we must turn to what we know.

Frodo: I can't do this, Sam.
Sam: I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were…
Image
So, really? I am the only one blurry? This picture was on the front page of the paper this morning. At least my name was spelled right part of the time. Waiting now. Waiting.......can't clean up office because don't know what is going to happen. Hard to concentrate on anything else..... http://www.peninsulaclarion.com/stories/030410/new_570766252.shtml
Image
So, the closings are done. I had never used Power Point much before this trial, but it is sure a useful tool. For example, we had a picture of Mark Twain with his saying
"If you tell the truth, you only have to remember one story." The jury is now out. I just wanted to update, still without talking about details on the case. The latest story in the paper was about how I got frustrated one day. No comment. 18 hour days were getting old.
http://www.peninsulaclarion.com/stories/030310/new_570228151.shtml