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So, I just had to bitch about a quirk in Alaska criminal law: the court approved third party custodian idea. The Alaska Statutes allow for a 'third party' to be approved by the court so a criminal accused can get out of jail. The idea was that those without funds (ahem: like 85% plus of those in the system) can bail out without cash. Bail has two parts. First, is the accused a 'flight risk'? Second, is the accused a public safety risk? The statute directs the judge to look at a number of factors. Here's the problem: generally, a court approved third party has to watch an accused "24/7". Sounds ok if it gets someone out of jail who would otherwise stay in, despite the presumption of innocence. The problem, of course, is that the State generally convinces the court that everyone is a public safety risk. Everyone. Smoking pot in your own home? Worse than Hitler. Insurance fraud? Danger. Got into a beef with your estranged spouse? You make Joh…
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So, Kotzebue. Meant to update when I was there but I forgot my camera cord. I worked my ass off during the day but really enjoyed my nights and weekends, despite the lack of any 'facilities' in Kotzebue. But just to make G in Fairbanks feel better, I had a horrible time. I absolutely did not shoot a little reindeer. I did not make a running head shot at 25 yards with my 30.30 with open sights (you would have given my high five for that shot....it dropped instantly). Of course it only about -3 when Iwas hunting so it does not count. I did not catch giant sheefish. I did not heavily arm myself and go for a ride all by myself in the arctic. Actually, that was exhilarating. Perhaps it was all in my head, but the sense of danger was awesome. I didn't know the country or the machine I was on. No one on earth knew where I was. I had no cell phone and very limited survival equipment. If anything had broken or I had gotten lost I could have just disappeared in the snow. Very cool.



















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So, a damn good day. Damn good. Spent the day snowmachining up in the Caribou Hills. An absolutely perfect day. The weather was amazing, the scenery breathtaking and the feeling of just being alive was overwhelming. The three pictures above were taken looking down on Tustemena Lake, where I intend to spend a big chunk of my summer.
Part of me feels bad that the girls aren't involved in this part of my life. But part of me is just still amazed to be in Alaska. I am determined to live each day to the fullest. I was thinking today how cool it will be when J and Kadee and Alissa Jaye are able to do this stuff with me. Soon enough. J deserves to see all of this and the girls deserve to grow up just as amazed by Alaska as I still am. A damn good day. P.S. I head back to Kotzebue on Tuesday. I was offered the chance again and snapped at it. This will be the last of my travels for some time. At least until Alissa is born.
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So, I have been acutely aware the last few days of how quickly life is going. Every thing around me seems to point to that fact: the melting of the snow. Seeing my friend Dan in his casket. Watching my little girl play dress up. J's rapidly growing belly. The words of caution from a friend to drive carefully who was worried as I drove through a mountain blizzard. I have always tried to live my life with the idea that when I go I hope my last thought is not one of regret. I have been prone to that emotion since I was a little boy. I always feel like I am not doing enough with life and that my time is ever closer. Strange. Dan's death has hit me hard, as it was so unexpected. It turns out that he just got too dehydrated from the flu. Damnit. One thing that has made me feel better in these last few sad days is the weather. You can see from this picture that it has been amazing. This picture was taken looking upstream at the Kasilof river where one would launch a boat to go t…
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So, death is a funny thing. It can come for anyone of us at anytime. I learned last night that my friend Dan Miller died. He got the flu and just up and died in his bed. He was only 62. Once again, I found myself in tears. I was going to call him last week and put it off. His wife told me he was going to call me this week. And now he is gone. I never got to say goodbye. How I treasured his friendship. He always used to call me "kid". And the last time we spoke he told me he loved me. And once again, I find myself in tears. Goodbye Danny. Rest in peace.

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So, it appears that J has "gestational diabetes". We're not sure what that really means yet but it sucks ass, whatever it is. Right now all we can do is hope that mother and daughter come out of this pregnancy healthy. I'm sure it will work out: J is generally healthy. Other than that, absolutely nothing is new. I must admit that I am looking forward to break-up. I have been enjoying riding the Rhino after work and the amount of daylight in this part of Alaska is increasing by almost 40 minutes a week. But I am getting tired of the snow and ice. When I was in Vegas a tiny part of me thought about moving back to a warmer climate. But moving right now is not an option: even if I wanted to, there is no money. Besides, I am developing friendships here that matter to me. But I was tempted by the 70 degree weather, I'll admit that. I need to go do a few trials before the weather does warm up because it seemed last summer that no one wanted to do trials. Kadee got her f…